. . . he raped me.
He does, apparently, in a complete surprise to me, know my phone number.
Thus, he can text me at 2:33 in the morning to let me know he is doing something we used to do, when we were in love, and he is "thinking" of me.
Readers, I have many thoughts and feelings about this. I have so many thoughts and feelings about this that I actually have none at all, and so I am just going to wait to write about this until I can pin those little buggers down and dissect them.
I do know that it is only 9.30 in the morning, but I am so done. Just . . . fuck today.
I feel sick. That is not something that anyone could easily process.
ReplyDeleteSending you support.
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Yes, very sickening... any way you can block his phone number?
ReplyDeleteBlocked!
ReplyDeleteDid it first thing this morning.
Gayle, I don't know you, but I wish you all the best. I read the post about him trying to contact you through Facebook, and in all honesty, I cannot imagine what that must feel like, even as I read your words when you express how that feels like. It must be terrifying and hurtful when your rapist wants to "be friends" with you, and tries to contact you. And it must be so maddening that this person who has harmed you beyond imagination, can be allowed to just approach you that way in life, to inflict himself on your experiences from which you try to remove him every day as you struggle with your trauma. I cannot imagine what you must be going through, but I wish you all the best, and hope you'll have the strength to deal with him.
ReplyDeleteI share the same sentiments as what 'a sane person' wrote. I have been reading your blog for a while and reading this post and the one about Facebook produced in me a great sense of disgust, and I don't even know you personally. Glad you were able to block him.
ReplyDeleteugh, that gave me goosebumps, i'm so sorry. glad you were able to block him. it's such a monstrous thing, to casually intrude on someone's life, on your terms, when you've caused them so much harm. sending love and support and warm fuzzies. xx
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